Paradox

Taken from Mahalanobis

It’s really weird how exciting things can happen; yet life still feels pretty… bland.

It’s been a while since the last post. We have so many excuses for that, but bottom line: we forgot the password. A bunch of geniuses aren’t we?

Since then, many things have happened. I have found a full-time job, stayed there for four months, and got another job. God saves my CV. I straightened my hair, so bye bye Janis Joplin’s hair (fingers crossed in a couple months I’ll have my old hair back). Oh, I started with the ex again and then had this huge fight and not talking again and met him once and haven’t talked to him since. And Minnie, well, Minnie has some interesting stories.

Our business venture is not quite ours anymore, it is soon-to-be Minnie’s business venture since I am too occupied with this full time job thing. (I’m so gonna rant about this bizarre thing that is a corporate job). Well, a lot of things have happened.

Despite all the fascinating stuff happening around my life, somehow I feel lost. I mean I love my job, I love my family, I love the few friends I have here and things are pretty perfect, but I don’t feel like myself.

I feel like I have to adjust myself to my community. People expect you to meet their expectations around here, and I just can’t handle that. Hell, I am probably the most liberal person you will ever see, and this country is a very conservative one. I can’t say what I want, I can’t be who I am. Hell, I can’t even say my conviction out loud.

So that’s all from me. This is one of the most exciting points in my life, and I’m frustrated.

Cheers,

-bubbalub-