First of all, Bubbalub. Your second last post made me so sad. Second of all, even worse, mine is nothing more cheerful than yours. So we would have to accept the fact that our blog feed is going to be a little (yeah right, a little) gloomy these days. But that's okay, life wouldn't be as interesting without these dynamics, right fellas? (Please just pretend to agree with my last statement even if you don't, I know I know who appreciates the unfortunate/bad things when they actually happen? Obviously trying to cheer myself up here).
As Bubbalub has mentioned, indeed it's been a while since our last post. And yes, we're that lazy that no effort was made to retrieve the password for quite a while. An urge to spit out our stories has been eating us up this whole time, but yea wonder why we didn't try hard enough to get our password back (and when we finally did, well it took us 3 minutes, if not less).
So a lot of things have happened to me too in the past several months. I got an internship at a fantastic NGO back home (and for the sake of confidentiality, I'll keep the NGO anonymous), learned so much from it, but it just changed the perfect image of my future goal to work in an NGO setting. The highly dependent nature on donors completely ruined my ideal view of NGO work. It disturbed me so much the fact that they had to beg (for the lack of a better term) money to donors for their programs to work effectively. Not to mention, the complicated requirements the donors lay out before they agree to give some money. You tell me that my ego gets me, and yes it maybe a part of the reason why it disturbed me but still, it just created this paradox of social work. And if anything, it conflicted my beliefs. Anyway, long story short, this brought me back to the business concept that Bubbalub and I have worked on for quite a while.
Way to go on escaping my idealism huh? Well, sorry my friend, but I just have to agree with Madonna that indeed, we're living in the material world. I am not very patient, either. So to make my dreams come true I'd have to work my ass off and make my own money. And of course, I have some student loan that I'll have to start paying back after graduation. And yess, I'm graduating this December. I've been freaking out thinking out entering the real life. My life nowadays is basically filled with six classes, part-time jobs, and endless job hunting. And just to better illustrate my job hunting experience, I've been clicking the "Jobs" or "Career" hyperlink of almost literally every website that I go to, it started with some consulting companies, advertising companies, aaaaand...it goes to Pandora, Urban Outfitters (and it might get to Weather.com too sometime soon I believe). Yes, it's a little intense, I'm just sayin.
Love life? Well. I bitched too much already, so I would say it's going fine now. Not to say that I'm dating anyone still. Ha. But I've been kinda talking to this guy since late June. We'll see how it goes. Okay fine, it was a little more complicated than that. I talked to two different guys during the summer, and it didn't end up very well with one of them. I'll talk about it later. Seeing people having more serious relationships at this point of time kinda make me rethink about my commitment issues tho.
Anyhoo, that was a quick recap of my life recently. When many students in my major have already had jobs lined up for them, I'm still working on making up my mind. Pressure, pressure! I usually work really well under pressure, but not sure if I really like this kind of pressure now. Fingers crossed to that!
xx,
Minnie
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